AND IT'S OVER!!!!!!!

We have been tested and we've made it through with our sanity partially attached.. but who's complaining?

NOT ME, CAUSE I'VE GOT THREE MONTHS OF AWESOMENESS TO FILL!

 

I'm going on a trip, I'm going on a trip, I'm going to go far.. ish.. la la la!

HEHE I've got four fun filled days coming up... I can't wait! The Kiama area-ish XD for three days and Ed's party after... and UNI for the fourth LOL.

AND AND AND.. I have a Thursday dinner, I think? and a Saturday hang out and and and and Holly's Concert.

I feel on top of things.. and being on top means spending.. heaps XD.. sigh~~...

 

So it shall be a quiet Decemeber for me.. which I don't mind.. cause I wanna learn how to service the car and so on,

PLUS I still have to build my little Giraffe clothes hanger, and maybe get a job.. eventually XD..

seeing as the amount of money I've spent and will be spending this week and next... is really quite frightening ><".

 

WE is going to the Central Coast for Christmas =]... It shall be cool ^^; just booked the rooms today =].

 

AND I SHALL HIT IT OFF AGAIN IN JANUARY AND FEBRUARY! =D

...at a reasonable level of course hehe.

 

I really should be off to bed.. right about now...

but I've been reminded of how so many innocent little things change once you're older.. and how much the lines blur.

BUT you know what... there's not much you can do about it... so I'll guess I'll just be... MEH =]P.

Yep and the whole thing that was going on has been sorted =], so it's all good.

Besides... yeh XD.

I know what I'm thinking.. do you? =]P.

 

Excitingly,

Helen ♥

 

P.S Reading a service and repair manual XD... let's see how far I get hehe.

Two down.. one to go... and it's the most dreaded one...

Gahh ran out of time today for BRM... pretty much missed out one question worth 30 marks... =(

But I'm pretty sure I passed... same goes for Database... probably just.. but I'd be happy not having to repeat the subject ^^.

I'll have to start studying for programming.... soon.. XD

 

YAY sitting out on the swing chair is awesome...

but I got bitten before I applied my trusty OFF! =(

 

I don't know what I wanted to write.. I just felt like blogging...

blog blog blog

 

=]P,

Helen ♥

Ok I've got it all worked out thanks to Billy =].

SHIT... just calculated my scores again for Networking..

I think I just got a Distinction.. ... instead of a Credit... JUST...

That's what the scores on Cisco is suggesting too, XD it says 75.1 LOL.. I hope I'm not jumping the gun ><".

 

If that's true.. then I need to at least get two credits...in BRM and DB cause we all know I can't get a credit in Programming ><"

and a pass...in programming to just keep my credit average...

or if I fail programming, I need a distinction and a credit in BRM and Databases to just keep my credit average.

 

I really really need to pass programming.. cause I don't want to have to do it again ><"...

but I'll have to HD the exam... gahhh.. how am I going to do that?!!!!!

That's getting all the multiple choice questions right and then 3 quarters of the coding questions right.

DAMNNIT... they better make both the coding questions easy.

 

On another note, I enjoyed by birthday immensely...

Wendy's Secret Garden is an awesome place, and it was heaps fun walking along the Harbour Bridge...

I was sad about Dippin' Dots though =(... KPower closed early.. 4pm my ass XP~~~.

XD ate woodfired Pizza.. haha cause my first choice wasn't possible at the time.. I wanted to go Blackheath and eat the nicest fish and chips.

Yes I'm a simple girl... with crazy ideas hehehehe.

 

Orthodontist appointment in less than twelve hours... I'm going for red and black =].

Then off to Billy's with Rowena to study for DB ^^.

Uni on Tuesday to study DB with Joseph and who ever else turns up...

DB exam on Wednesday

BRM exam on Saturday

and Apps Prog exam the following Wednesday...

and then... FREEDOM ^^.

 

Night!

Helen ♥

 

P.S. Yes there's alot of "just"'s, lol I'm not in a very stable position right now; let's hope this changes for the better, next semester XD.

Ahh 19 now... the last of the teens.... next year I'll be entering the 20s.

Lol but let's not think that far ahead.

I think I might go out to the city to celebrate by myself... kinda like last year how I went bushwalking.

I could probably find someone if I thought hard enough to come with me.

But it'd be really nice to do something for myself... self reflection time... or something along those lines...

gahh should've planned to go to ruined castle.. but it's too late now =(

So off to an adventure I go =D... lol that's if I don't wake up too late.

Which reminds me... I must go charge batteries after this =].

 

The last two days was awesome ^^.

 

Hehe after much trouble and negotiation I finally got my 10 points fulfilled =D on Wednesday

After the BRM lecture we, Rowena, Billy, Brandon and me, travelled to townhall to watched Astro Boy for free ^^,

Ahh don't you just love feel good movies... lol but a pretty funny ending XD.

Went home after going to prize paradise with my toy which Rowena exchanged with me =D.

Unfortunately... I felt kinda sick on the train...you know that sick feeling where you want to throw up... lol I found out today that Matt threw up Wednesday...

XD it's like every time he gets sick, I get sick too... =]P.

But I slept it off so I was all good.

 

I'm so happy about networking... I'm pretty sure I'm sitting on a credit ^^.

Just completed the subject today... it was a relief.

And we celebrated our relief in the first years lounge the way we usually do.. bludging, gaming and watching stuff =]P.

And I completed my 10 points... now just to get more =].

 

Now only Database, BRM and Programming to study....

lol I'd be happy if I could just scrape a pass... that's how gahhh I am about the exams...

BRM I think I'll be ok... it's just DB and Programming.. cause if I stuff up.. I'll fail ><", especially Programming.

 

Happy Birthday to all =]P,

Helen ♥

 

P.S. I might go and get dippin' dots ^^.

Dear my Ram Jam and Yangers,

 

You should both know that you're two very special people to me,

why else would I take you guys in as my children, right =].

I know you're both facing difficult times right now, and as much as I try to understand,

I know that every situation is unique and that you will both have to find the strength within yourselves to get through this.

 

Ram Jam,

I hope you know what a wonderful person you are, and I know how difficult it was the make the decision you did.

It's important that you don't blame yourself for anything, because when you think negatively... those thoughts will only grow,

it takes a lot to think positively and keep thinking positively, but I know you can do it, cause you have such a strong, determined and bubbly personality.

You made a hard decision that no one ever enjoys making or doing but I know you made it with much thought and it was the right thing to do.

Just know that you have all of us supporting you every step of the way, so don't ever feel like you can't talk to anyone of us.

Any of us would lend an ear and a shoulder for you.

What ever you want we'll do our best to do it for you.

I LOVE YOU, MWAH!

 

Yangerssssssssssss,

You are a great guy and you should know that by now. Don't ever give up on yourself!

It's alright and normal to be confused.

It doesn't make you any less of a person because of how you're feeling now, in fact it makes you more of a person.

Once you've done all that you need to do, don't forget to take some time off for yourself, because if you don't you'll burn out.

Forget about everyone else and only focus on yourself and only you... promise me that ok?

LOVE YOU HEAPS YANG =D.

 

I love both of you so much, and I know you both know that I will be here for you,

and if you've forgotten, I'll tell you again ... I'M HERE FOR YOU =]P.

I know that both of you will pull through on your own, but don't be afraid to ask for help,

cause each and everyone of us would put down everything you help you guys =].

 

Love,

Helen ♥

I really should be sleeping right now hhehe.. but Gossip Girl's taking an age to buffer..

and I want to get as many shows as I can out of the way XD.

 

Today was a good day =D, minus the hot weather.

It was really fun to hang out with out with everyone, free on exams and watch Paranormal Activity,

wasn't scary.. lol though I did jump XD, kinda turned into more of a comedy lol from all the commentary, but it was all good.

Hopefully I can pass the database exam, lol it would make me ecstatic, same goes for programming and business requirements modelling.

Speaking of uni... I like my timetable for next semester.. lol and my second semester timetable even more =D.

 

Friday was also a good night, went to the Halloween party as blue leopard,

and true to form I did something eye catching.. this time it was the hair... love that coloured hair spray XD.

Though the music was a bit.. ehhh... not what you could really dance to... but all up it was a great night cause we let loose =].

 

Gahh it keeps buffering ><""" whyyyyyyyy?

 

So this is the end of this blog...

but there will be another one following for two very special people =].

Helen ♥

The BiG Haunted II party is coming up...

'Tis a Halloween party... which means dressing up ^^.

 

Gahh I don't know what to go as.. it's been a year or so since I last dressed up properly... ahh good times.

Should I pull out all stops and wear something themed around a garter belt, pull ups and corset like belt? ;D

Or go as something more innocent?

 

Hrmms...

lol Rowena wants me to funk up my hair.. XD but there's no way I'm walking to uni like that...

I'll do it in the first years lounge if someone helps =D.

Let's see, I've already dressed up as:

a tame vampire, in a card set, as Tuxedo Mask, as kids, the Joker, european barmaid, a blue plastic cat, a pirate, school girl, three random blue outfits XD and a weird looking lion.

Hmm maybe a banshee.. I wonder if there are any sexy Banshees.. LOL just joking.

But I really want to wear my garter belt, I haven't dressed up in it yet XD. BWAHAH a dead hooker? XP

Or maybe something kinda Victorian or Elizabethian.

Ghost? LOL

 

I need help!!

Helen ♥

I GOT MY P1 License yesterday YAY!!!!!!!!

Watch out people cause I'm driving without supervision now XD.

I gots 105/108.. lol I lost 2 points for palming the wheel ><" and 1 cause I didn't slow down enough for a car that was stopped in a backing out process.

HAHA also forgot to indicate at one point.

But my testing officer was really nice, he chatted to me at the traffic lights...

XD at first I thought that was a test.. maybe it was.. but I think he was trying to get me to relax.

And surprisingly, I was really relaxed for the test.

 

Lol I can't seem to get ♪ Super Junior-M - Super Girls ♫, out of my head, all thanks to Billy lol.

I'm really in the mood to dance, I can't wait for Haunted II, but I really hope Chi or Yasaswi can come,

cause I can't really let loose whilst dancing without either of them... cause we totally dance so well together -.^.

Plus they usually stop me from doing anything too stupid HAHAHHA, and we all know Helen doing stupid things create funny little stories

or embarrassing pictures XD.

 

Oh yeh.. BRANDON YOU BETTER GET YOUR ASS TO HAUNTED AS WELL!

IF I WAS GETTING MY TEETH PULLED OUT THE HOUR BEFORE HAUNTED.. I'D STILL GO!!

It'll also be a great way to celebrate the end of week 13, damn assignment week XP~~.

So come? =D

 

Other song stuck in my head is ♪ The Killers - Mr. Brightside ♫, and that's thanks to Rowena linking it and Brandon constantly singing it,

lol especially this line

Ahh good song ;D. It's playing right now ^^.

And I'm really reading into the lyrics... sad =(.

 

lol I was watching Sex and the City yesterday, and it got me thinking.. thinking about him...why?

 

♪ Owl City - Fireflies ♫ is pretty good too ^^, Seamus linked it to me =D.

it kinda reminds me of Mae, but with a more synthesized feel.

Gahh I wanna see that guy!

Hopefully one day soon.

 

Nom'ing,

Helen ♥

Somebody makes my heart flutter... =]P.

But... I don't want to lose anyone.

 

Programming ^^, and it's going kinda well =D.

 

Yesterday was an awesome day too.. Did Brandon and Billy's hair ^^.

Dear Billy, Brandon and Nathan,

 

I am sincerely sorry for my behaviour yesterday.

I was frustrated with myself and I took it out on you guys when you clearly didn't mean any harm.

I hope you guys can all forgive me for my childish behaviour and you don' t hate me.

Hopefully I didn't disturb your sleep with my messages... and I'll see you on Tuesday for HUGS!!!!

YAY

 

I LOVE YOU GUYS! ♥

Helen ♥

I....hmmmmmn.

I wonder if....

I don't know....

 

Hmming,

Helen ♥

I'm disappointed with the way I handled things...

But I didn't know any other way without getting hurt...

Yes I'm cold chicken... a bitch if you'd like... especially with how I did it.

FUCK, but I don't want to get hurt again... twice this freaken year... and it's finals coming up.

What was I suppose to do?

Wait around.. till he eventually contacted me again?

Or was I suppose to contact him?

 

Stupid conventions...

Oh well... there isn't much I can do, that I actually want to do...

I don't know him enough to risk it... I wanted to know him... but that didn't happen.

What he told me seem sincere... but none of his words matched his actions...

Did I start that...?

 

Goddamnnit ... this is becoming a habit...

The taking of innocence? or would is it just the initiation of naughtiness?

Is it bitchy to prioritise? Does that make you selfish?

Shut down?

I don't want to ... it's started to get more open these last few years...

But maybe I need to take a step back?

 

I hope you guys all learnt a lesson.

 

Contemplating,

Helen ♥

What is this... so strange.. you know what... I don't think I've ever really dated anyone...

it's always been like.. jump right into a relationship...

maybe it's time to learn from that hmm?

 

Gahh I get annoyed at myself sometimes... I don't know what I want.

I like to talk about inappropriate things...

and I know about the affects and consequences...

yet I still do it.. and then I get all worried about it afterwards.

 

XD btw... my reputation has been tarnished.. I guess it woud've happen at some point or other.

Though I would've thought that it would've been the result of something that really happened..

it wasn't.

 

I've just noticed... I've come to a conclusion regarding something at several points...

but something keeps happening to make me step back from it.

I was going to admit to it myself a month or so ago... then an unexpected event occured, and made me question myself.

Finally I had admitted it to myself last week, and was going to blog about it... lol and another unexpected event occured.

No communication has occured... What are my expectations suppose to be?

 

Openly,

Helen ♥

Only 4 weeks left to exam period... I've got three to do... 11th, 14th and 18th of November...

I'll be keeping my fingers crossed in hope I pass... Gahhh I hope my GPA doesn't go down ><".

 

Wednesday had lunch with some awesome people; Brandon, Shenna, Preet, Simran and Yasaswi ^^.

Then watched Mao's Last Dancer with Rachel and met up later with Ed to give her her phone back,

lol she left it at UTS on the Tuesday she came.

HAHAH I forgot to tell one little story from my last blog.

On Tuesday, I finally convinced Brandon to get his Magnum Ice Cream for the Gold Class upgrade.. and he did.

Then when I see him later and I ask him jokingly if he kept the wrapper, he tells me no.. and so I lunged at him screaming "OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?".

Haha ok it wasn't that dramatic.. but I did scream at him...

hahaha after a week's worth of ordering him to get it... he finally does ... and throws it away =.=".

But I made him get it on Wednesday after lunch, and I kept it for him too and registered it lol,

in the end he didn't end up watching the movie with us, so I still have it in my bag.

 

Thursday was just networking, I don't think anyone was really paying attention,

I was doing my Databases, Rowena was chatting on Brandon's laptop, Pete and Jaan were on Jaan's laptop... and Brandon attempted to understand... lol but we seemed to have more fun, so he wasn't always listening... XD there's always next week right? X]P~~.

Went to Broadway afterwards... the Pizza IS nice ^^. HAHA and girly shots of Brandon... shall upload to albums after blog =D.

Met up with Nathan later.. and he had been drinking, so he was much more huggy than usual XD.

 

Friday, watched Whip It with Rowena and Billy, there was suppose to be more of us... but people pulled out XP.

GAHH.. and then it was raining after the movie.. so we took the Free City Bus and went around in a loop to get to Central XD.

MWAHHAAH Brandon kissed Chris' hand and Billy's hand on bended knee ;D, and I couldn't say or write anywords with h, e or b.

Yasaswi met us later.. and we ate... RAMEN.. finally XD.. the soup was so thick and wow ^^.

Gian and Son came and we parted ways later.

Raj came to meet Yasaswi and I, so we roamed around a bit.

 

I DROVE TODAY... that is all X]P... three hours ^^.

More driving tomorrow... Can't wait for P's

 

Uploading,

Helen ♥

sOoo since I can't shower cause my mum is, I thought I'd blog =].

So my long weekend, Sunday went Michael's party... lol let's jst say it was surprisingly unexpected.

Lol I know I usually blog in more detail, but I think I'll hold off for now.

 

Spent Monday studying with Joseph, we actually got stuff done,

admist the facebooking and ebuddying. So it was a good effort.

 

Tuesday, first day of uni... GAHHH.

Lol I woke up early to catch the train with Rowena and co., XD almost missed it.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT... I LOVE EDWINA WONG, cause she hung out with me at uni ♥.

It made my day, lol plus we skipped stuff hahhahah.

Got to meet Samatha and met up with Lawrence, he crashed my databases lecture with me ^^.

Now to the downside of the day... got my programming marks back... failed, BUT it was a better failure than expected.

AND FAILED MY DATABASES TEST =.=", so yes.. two failures in a day ><, plus our Cayan Grill burger coupon wasn't being accepted anymore ><".

 

Haven't left such a short blog in a while, erratic =]P.

Night y'all.

 

Happy,

Helen ♥

Whooo Hoooo... Friday was pretty awesome, lol I wasn't that crazy but let's go through the day.. really fast;

Met up with Rizwana first for lunch and then Brandon called me to tell me he agreed with my terms mwahahh ^^ and told me to hug EVERYONE...

which I kinda did, lol I hugged everyone I would hug and was familiar with.

Then Tharun, Yasaswi, Preetham and Preet came.

So lunch was spent eating KFC, since we had coupons, we bumped into Jane and Feng.

As we were leaving Naman and Charlie came, so a quick hi and buy and off we went to drop Preet off.

 

Lol Adem finally came and we hungout for a while and went to Yasaswi's work Oktoberfest.

I managed to guilt trip James and Joseph into not cancelling Friday night... I LOVE YOU GUYS.

LOL we almost were caught, which caused us to be late, a quick little stop over had to be made, and we were on our way again =].

Started off in the Pavillion, then went off to China town, watched James play the drum game and then back to the Pavillion again.

 

It was pretty awesome, lol my knees and feet hurt from all the dancing XD.

One of the many highlights of the night, YASASWI'S NINE guys, followed closely by EMILIE'S TWO OR THREE GUYS... nice guys nice ^^.

Unfortunately James left early, and Joseph slightly later than James,

so they missed out on the trains these girls were pulling, but I'm sure there'll be a next time XD.

Bumped into Daniel too cause Emilie knew Miki and then we rode the train with Kevin.

 

Saturday night was pretty awesome too, I'm sorry I missed your birthday Ben ><".

Drove to Hornsby with family, in the rain, so I'm pretty awesome, still alive =]P.

Had dinner and then went to James' place.

Lol I suprirsed Phillip and David by joking around with them like how I usually do with my friends,

I had decided they were old enough.

 

Talked to Nathan online too, lol he was 'tipsy' or so he says, lol I WANT TO SEE him when he's drunk XD.

But hopefully I won't be a target when I do. Stupid Nathan =.=".

 

YAY MICHAEL'S TONIGHT ^^ and then Uni on tuesday lol, I have a databases exam I haven't studied for yet ><",

and then lunch with Preet, Yasaswi, Brandon and maybe Nathan ^^.

Fun day, went driving, lol only got beeped at once, so that must be a good thing right? XD.

 

I didn't end up going to the airport, probably cause I slept too late last night XD.

So instead I increased my driving hours by driving my mum and myself to DFO.

Then drove to PPS to pick up Holly from camp, and walked to meet up with Yasaswi and later, Preet =].

Quite a good day, but I still haven't gotten the presents I'm suppose to, soon though, soon.

 

GAHH I don't know what to ask for for my five points... lol I have an idea... but would it be too crazy?

It goes something like... me texting Brandon about it =]P.

 

Can't wait till lunch and our night out ^^.

We shall get crazily drunk and dance the night away,

ok we won't be that bad, but I feel like letting loose XD.

 

I will see you all soon, if I'm still alive after tonight =]P.

Helen ♥

 

Well, today is the 60th Anniversary for the People's Republic of China,

and sadly that's kinda the extent of the knowledge of my heritage =.=",

I'll ask my parents when I wake up later.

 

But to today's adventure,

met up with Yasaswi in the morning to receive the picnic goodies,

then went to UTS to meet Sheng for our group assignment and learned of the FREE CAYAN BURGER OFFER LOL.

Meet up with Chi with Sheng at KFC and got our first burger of the night.

We were joined by Sheng's friend Raymond, which we probably amused a bit with our strangeness lol.

 

AND THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY,

watching "She's Out Of Your League".

Oh the comedy was so funny and original, it had me rolling in my seat and Chi had tears of laughter in her eyes.

The only bad thing was that the story dragged a little bit at times,

but overall, IT WAS AWESOME.

I loved it =D, so now you must all watch it, it's one of those feel good comedies.

 

It was pretty funny how they had the whole rating system happening.

I've kinda just only learnt about it, so it was interesting watching a movie based on it =]P.

 

 

Airport tomorrow, but big bang theory =]P,

Helen ♥

A nice full day today,

Woke up early in hope of meeting Yang, but he forgot about me and went to uni early ><".

So I waited at the station for 30 minutes, or so, for the 9am meet up with Amy, Tijana and Melda.

They got there on time, bought tickets and off we went to the NSW Art Gallery, lol we were all so tired and craving seats.

 

Arrived at the gallery, admired the artwork, read the description and took some photos, which I will eventually upload.

Then walked in the direction of Townhall, Amy was so cute, she had a little map draw out so we wouldn't get lost, awwww =].

Ate at Macca's and Subway, I got a deluxe cheeseburger and a foot long meatball sub, ahhh it was so satisfying feeling full ^^.

Later left Amy, Tijana and Melda for my driving lesson, while they went to watch Fame.

 

Had a driving lesson at 3pm, which really meant I got in the car and didn't start driving till 3.30pm.

Sigh~~ I can't reverse park properly, it comes and goes, lol I need to be more consistant, and my decision making is horrible,

plus my positioning of the car when turn is bad too, lol I'm usually blocking traffic =.=".

So there's quite a bit I have to work on over the next few weeks before I go for my driving test.

Let's hope this all eventually becomes natural for me.

 

Finally met Yang afterwards, caught him as he was coming back from uni,

had a nice little chat, but both he and I had to run lol so I walked him to his bus stop,

as I said to him "You're the woman and I'm the man, so I've got to make sure that you're not violated" XD.

 

AND THE LAST EXCITING POINT OF THE DAY... I GOT A TENT! YES! and I finally got my Anaconda club card thingo.

BUT I GOT A TENT ... and that's the important thing.

NOW... to drag people to come camping with me.

I don't know, Chi and I were discussing once that we should do it for our birthdays, but she might've changed her mind.

Plus if we both invite our friends, the people might outnumber the resources, sooo more on that later.

BUT I'm definitely going to go camping before the end of 2009.

 

Lol I actually have a list of what I want to do before the end of 2009,

it goes like this:

- Western Line Station Photos

- Mt Annan (DONE)

- Olympic Park Bike Ride

- Manly Bike Ride

- Ruined Castle, hmmm maybe I can combine this with camping ^^.

- Grand Canyon, the one in Australia XD.

- Giraffe Coat Stand, I've been meaning to make this since last year ><".

- P's, Soon, very soon XP

- Hornsby to Berowa or Berowa to Hornsby

- Fishing/Boating

- Lake Parramatta

- Job, lol I've got to fix up my resume first XP.

- Bookshelf

- Go to Via Alley and Treasure Society

- Birthday Camp

- J4G Picnic Surprise (DONE)

- Memory Box, in progress ><"

- Maths/English Tutor, lol I'll call them eventually.

 

HAHA so much I want to do, and only three months to go... I'll do it, just you watch XP,

and I'll drag you all with me ^^.

 

Sleepy,

Helen.