The BiG Haunted II party is coming up...

'Tis a Halloween party... which means dressing up ^^.

 

Gahh I don't know what to go as.. it's been a year or so since I last dressed up properly... ahh good times.

Should I pull out all stops and wear something themed around a garter belt, pull ups and corset like belt? ;D

Or go as something more innocent?

 

Hrmms...

lol Rowena wants me to funk up my hair.. XD but there's no way I'm walking to uni like that...

I'll do it in the first years lounge if someone helps =D.

Let's see, I've already dressed up as:

a tame vampire, in a card set, as Tuxedo Mask, as kids, the Joker, european barmaid, a blue plastic cat, a pirate, school girl, three random blue outfits XD and a weird looking lion.

Hmm maybe a banshee.. I wonder if there are any sexy Banshees.. LOL just joking.

But I really want to wear my garter belt, I haven't dressed up in it yet XD. BWAHAH a dead hooker? XP

Or maybe something kinda Victorian or Elizabethian.

Ghost? LOL

 

I need help!!

Helen ♥

I GOT MY P1 License yesterday YAY!!!!!!!!

Watch out people cause I'm driving without supervision now XD.

I gots 105/108.. lol I lost 2 points for palming the wheel ><" and 1 cause I didn't slow down enough for a car that was stopped in a backing out process.

HAHA also forgot to indicate at one point.

But my testing officer was really nice, he chatted to me at the traffic lights...

XD at first I thought that was a test.. maybe it was.. but I think he was trying to get me to relax.

And surprisingly, I was really relaxed for the test.

 

Lol I can't seem to get ♪ Super Junior-M - Super Girls ♫, out of my head, all thanks to Billy lol.

I'm really in the mood to dance, I can't wait for Haunted II, but I really hope Chi or Yasaswi can come,

cause I can't really let loose whilst dancing without either of them... cause we totally dance so well together -.^.

Plus they usually stop me from doing anything too stupid HAHAHHA, and we all know Helen doing stupid things create funny little stories

or embarrassing pictures XD.

 

Oh yeh.. BRANDON YOU BETTER GET YOUR ASS TO HAUNTED AS WELL!

IF I WAS GETTING MY TEETH PULLED OUT THE HOUR BEFORE HAUNTED.. I'D STILL GO!!

It'll also be a great way to celebrate the end of week 13, damn assignment week XP~~.

So come? =D

 

Other song stuck in my head is ♪ The Killers - Mr. Brightside ♫, and that's thanks to Rowena linking it and Brandon constantly singing it,

lol especially this line

Ahh good song ;D. It's playing right now ^^.

And I'm really reading into the lyrics... sad =(.

 

lol I was watching Sex and the City yesterday, and it got me thinking.. thinking about him...why?

 

♪ Owl City - Fireflies ♫ is pretty good too ^^, Seamus linked it to me =D.

it kinda reminds me of Mae, but with a more synthesized feel.

Gahh I wanna see that guy!

Hopefully one day soon.

 

Nom'ing,

Helen ♥

Somebody makes my heart flutter... =]P.

But... I don't want to lose anyone.

 

Programming ^^, and it's going kinda well =D.

 

Yesterday was an awesome day too.. Did Brandon and Billy's hair ^^.

Dear Billy, Brandon and Nathan,

 

I am sincerely sorry for my behaviour yesterday.

I was frustrated with myself and I took it out on you guys when you clearly didn't mean any harm.

I hope you guys can all forgive me for my childish behaviour and you don' t hate me.

Hopefully I didn't disturb your sleep with my messages... and I'll see you on Tuesday for HUGS!!!!

YAY

 

I LOVE YOU GUYS! ♥

Helen ♥

I....hmmmmmn.

I wonder if....

I don't know....

 

Hmming,

Helen ♥

I'm disappointed with the way I handled things...

But I didn't know any other way without getting hurt...

Yes I'm cold chicken... a bitch if you'd like... especially with how I did it.

FUCK, but I don't want to get hurt again... twice this freaken year... and it's finals coming up.

What was I suppose to do?

Wait around.. till he eventually contacted me again?

Or was I suppose to contact him?

 

Stupid conventions...

Oh well... there isn't much I can do, that I actually want to do...

I don't know him enough to risk it... I wanted to know him... but that didn't happen.

What he told me seem sincere... but none of his words matched his actions...

Did I start that...?

 

Goddamnnit ... this is becoming a habit...

The taking of innocence? or would is it just the initiation of naughtiness?

Is it bitchy to prioritise? Does that make you selfish?

Shut down?

I don't want to ... it's started to get more open these last few years...

But maybe I need to take a step back?

 

I hope you guys all learnt a lesson.

 

Contemplating,

Helen ♥

What is this... so strange.. you know what... I don't think I've ever really dated anyone...

it's always been like.. jump right into a relationship...

maybe it's time to learn from that hmm?

 

Gahh I get annoyed at myself sometimes... I don't know what I want.

I like to talk about inappropriate things...

and I know about the affects and consequences...

yet I still do it.. and then I get all worried about it afterwards.

 

XD btw... my reputation has been tarnished.. I guess it woud've happen at some point or other.

Though I would've thought that it would've been the result of something that really happened..

it wasn't.

 

I've just noticed... I've come to a conclusion regarding something at several points...

but something keeps happening to make me step back from it.

I was going to admit to it myself a month or so ago... then an unexpected event occured, and made me question myself.

Finally I had admitted it to myself last week, and was going to blog about it... lol and another unexpected event occured.

No communication has occured... What are my expectations suppose to be?

 

Openly,

Helen ♥

Only 4 weeks left to exam period... I've got three to do... 11th, 14th and 18th of November...

I'll be keeping my fingers crossed in hope I pass... Gahhh I hope my GPA doesn't go down ><".

 

Wednesday had lunch with some awesome people; Brandon, Shenna, Preet, Simran and Yasaswi ^^.

Then watched Mao's Last Dancer with Rachel and met up later with Ed to give her her phone back,

lol she left it at UTS on the Tuesday she came.

HAHAH I forgot to tell one little story from my last blog.

On Tuesday, I finally convinced Brandon to get his Magnum Ice Cream for the Gold Class upgrade.. and he did.

Then when I see him later and I ask him jokingly if he kept the wrapper, he tells me no.. and so I lunged at him screaming "OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?".

Haha ok it wasn't that dramatic.. but I did scream at him...

hahaha after a week's worth of ordering him to get it... he finally does ... and throws it away =.=".

But I made him get it on Wednesday after lunch, and I kept it for him too and registered it lol,

in the end he didn't end up watching the movie with us, so I still have it in my bag.

 

Thursday was just networking, I don't think anyone was really paying attention,

I was doing my Databases, Rowena was chatting on Brandon's laptop, Pete and Jaan were on Jaan's laptop... and Brandon attempted to understand... lol but we seemed to have more fun, so he wasn't always listening... XD there's always next week right? X]P~~.

Went to Broadway afterwards... the Pizza IS nice ^^. HAHA and girly shots of Brandon... shall upload to albums after blog =D.

Met up with Nathan later.. and he had been drinking, so he was much more huggy than usual XD.

 

Friday, watched Whip It with Rowena and Billy, there was suppose to be more of us... but people pulled out XP.

GAHH.. and then it was raining after the movie.. so we took the Free City Bus and went around in a loop to get to Central XD.

MWAHHAAH Brandon kissed Chris' hand and Billy's hand on bended knee ;D, and I couldn't say or write anywords with h, e or b.

Yasaswi met us later.. and we ate... RAMEN.. finally XD.. the soup was so thick and wow ^^.

Gian and Son came and we parted ways later.

Raj came to meet Yasaswi and I, so we roamed around a bit.

 

I DROVE TODAY... that is all X]P... three hours ^^.

More driving tomorrow... Can't wait for P's

 

Uploading,

Helen ♥

sOoo since I can't shower cause my mum is, I thought I'd blog =].

So my long weekend, Sunday went Michael's party... lol let's jst say it was surprisingly unexpected.

Lol I know I usually blog in more detail, but I think I'll hold off for now.

 

Spent Monday studying with Joseph, we actually got stuff done,

admist the facebooking and ebuddying. So it was a good effort.

 

Tuesday, first day of uni... GAHHH.

Lol I woke up early to catch the train with Rowena and co., XD almost missed it.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT... I LOVE EDWINA WONG, cause she hung out with me at uni ♥.

It made my day, lol plus we skipped stuff hahhahah.

Got to meet Samatha and met up with Lawrence, he crashed my databases lecture with me ^^.

Now to the downside of the day... got my programming marks back... failed, BUT it was a better failure than expected.

AND FAILED MY DATABASES TEST =.=", so yes.. two failures in a day ><, plus our Cayan Grill burger coupon wasn't being accepted anymore ><".

 

Haven't left such a short blog in a while, erratic =]P.

Night y'all.

 

Happy,

Helen ♥

Whooo Hoooo... Friday was pretty awesome, lol I wasn't that crazy but let's go through the day.. really fast;

Met up with Rizwana first for lunch and then Brandon called me to tell me he agreed with my terms mwahahh ^^ and told me to hug EVERYONE...

which I kinda did, lol I hugged everyone I would hug and was familiar with.

Then Tharun, Yasaswi, Preetham and Preet came.

So lunch was spent eating KFC, since we had coupons, we bumped into Jane and Feng.

As we were leaving Naman and Charlie came, so a quick hi and buy and off we went to drop Preet off.

 

Lol Adem finally came and we hungout for a while and went to Yasaswi's work Oktoberfest.

I managed to guilt trip James and Joseph into not cancelling Friday night... I LOVE YOU GUYS.

LOL we almost were caught, which caused us to be late, a quick little stop over had to be made, and we were on our way again =].

Started off in the Pavillion, then went off to China town, watched James play the drum game and then back to the Pavillion again.

 

It was pretty awesome, lol my knees and feet hurt from all the dancing XD.

One of the many highlights of the night, YASASWI'S NINE guys, followed closely by EMILIE'S TWO OR THREE GUYS... nice guys nice ^^.

Unfortunately James left early, and Joseph slightly later than James,

so they missed out on the trains these girls were pulling, but I'm sure there'll be a next time XD.

Bumped into Daniel too cause Emilie knew Miki and then we rode the train with Kevin.

 

Saturday night was pretty awesome too, I'm sorry I missed your birthday Ben ><".

Drove to Hornsby with family, in the rain, so I'm pretty awesome, still alive =]P.

Had dinner and then went to James' place.

Lol I suprirsed Phillip and David by joking around with them like how I usually do with my friends,

I had decided they were old enough.

 

Talked to Nathan online too, lol he was 'tipsy' or so he says, lol I WANT TO SEE him when he's drunk XD.

But hopefully I won't be a target when I do. Stupid Nathan =.=".

 

YAY MICHAEL'S TONIGHT ^^ and then Uni on tuesday lol, I have a databases exam I haven't studied for yet ><",

and then lunch with Preet, Yasaswi, Brandon and maybe Nathan ^^.

Fun day, went driving, lol only got beeped at once, so that must be a good thing right? XD.

 

I didn't end up going to the airport, probably cause I slept too late last night XD.

So instead I increased my driving hours by driving my mum and myself to DFO.

Then drove to PPS to pick up Holly from camp, and walked to meet up with Yasaswi and later, Preet =].

Quite a good day, but I still haven't gotten the presents I'm suppose to, soon though, soon.

 

GAHH I don't know what to ask for for my five points... lol I have an idea... but would it be too crazy?

It goes something like... me texting Brandon about it =]P.

 

Can't wait till lunch and our night out ^^.

We shall get crazily drunk and dance the night away,

ok we won't be that bad, but I feel like letting loose XD.

 

I will see you all soon, if I'm still alive after tonight =]P.

Helen ♥

 

Well, today is the 60th Anniversary for the People's Republic of China,

and sadly that's kinda the extent of the knowledge of my heritage =.=",

I'll ask my parents when I wake up later.

 

But to today's adventure,

met up with Yasaswi in the morning to receive the picnic goodies,

then went to UTS to meet Sheng for our group assignment and learned of the FREE CAYAN BURGER OFFER LOL.

Meet up with Chi with Sheng at KFC and got our first burger of the night.

We were joined by Sheng's friend Raymond, which we probably amused a bit with our strangeness lol.

 

AND THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY,

watching "She's Out Of Your League".

Oh the comedy was so funny and original, it had me rolling in my seat and Chi had tears of laughter in her eyes.

The only bad thing was that the story dragged a little bit at times,

but overall, IT WAS AWESOME.

I loved it =D, so now you must all watch it, it's one of those feel good comedies.

 

It was pretty funny how they had the whole rating system happening.

I've kinda just only learnt about it, so it was interesting watching a movie based on it =]P.

 

 

Airport tomorrow, but big bang theory =]P,

Helen ♥

A nice full day today,

Woke up early in hope of meeting Yang, but he forgot about me and went to uni early ><".

So I waited at the station for 30 minutes, or so, for the 9am meet up with Amy, Tijana and Melda.

They got there on time, bought tickets and off we went to the NSW Art Gallery, lol we were all so tired and craving seats.

 

Arrived at the gallery, admired the artwork, read the description and took some photos, which I will eventually upload.

Then walked in the direction of Townhall, Amy was so cute, she had a little map draw out so we wouldn't get lost, awwww =].

Ate at Macca's and Subway, I got a deluxe cheeseburger and a foot long meatball sub, ahhh it was so satisfying feeling full ^^.

Later left Amy, Tijana and Melda for my driving lesson, while they went to watch Fame.

 

Had a driving lesson at 3pm, which really meant I got in the car and didn't start driving till 3.30pm.

Sigh~~ I can't reverse park properly, it comes and goes, lol I need to be more consistant, and my decision making is horrible,

plus my positioning of the car when turn is bad too, lol I'm usually blocking traffic =.=".

So there's quite a bit I have to work on over the next few weeks before I go for my driving test.

Let's hope this all eventually becomes natural for me.

 

Finally met Yang afterwards, caught him as he was coming back from uni,

had a nice little chat, but both he and I had to run lol so I walked him to his bus stop,

as I said to him "You're the woman and I'm the man, so I've got to make sure that you're not violated" XD.

 

AND THE LAST EXCITING POINT OF THE DAY... I GOT A TENT! YES! and I finally got my Anaconda club card thingo.

BUT I GOT A TENT ... and that's the important thing.

NOW... to drag people to come camping with me.

I don't know, Chi and I were discussing once that we should do it for our birthdays, but she might've changed her mind.

Plus if we both invite our friends, the people might outnumber the resources, sooo more on that later.

BUT I'm definitely going to go camping before the end of 2009.

 

Lol I actually have a list of what I want to do before the end of 2009,

it goes like this:

- Western Line Station Photos

- Mt Annan (DONE)

- Olympic Park Bike Ride

- Manly Bike Ride

- Ruined Castle, hmmm maybe I can combine this with camping ^^.

- Grand Canyon, the one in Australia XD.

- Giraffe Coat Stand, I've been meaning to make this since last year ><".

- P's, Soon, very soon XP

- Hornsby to Berowa or Berowa to Hornsby

- Fishing/Boating

- Lake Parramatta

- Job, lol I've got to fix up my resume first XP.

- Bookshelf

- Go to Via Alley and Treasure Society

- Birthday Camp

- J4G Picnic Surprise (DONE)

- Memory Box, in progress ><"

- Maths/English Tutor, lol I'll call them eventually.

 

HAHA so much I want to do, and only three months to go... I'll do it, just you watch XP,

and I'll drag you all with me ^^.

 

Sleepy,

Helen.

What did little 'ole Helen do today,

 

She blogged, met up with Preet and listened to records whilst cleaning her room, which is now impeccable, ok not really that clean XP,

but still pretty clean since I vacuumed, cleaned the mirrors and put stuff away ^^.

 

And so as I was wiping away at my mirrors with chinese newpapers,

since the ink comes off more easily, thus making it a better mirror cleaner,

I thought to myself, it was just like looking into a mirror,

no I'm not an idiot, I'm referring to something else, but yes I was literally looking into a mirror too.

Just the manner of things, you've already guessed an answer,

so asking me achieves nothing, except the confirmation that you're right,

it's not entirely curiousity.

Oh how I use to love doing that lol, and now it's being done to me,

except in my case I always got my answer, and you still haven't gotten mine.

 

 

Lol I was hating it before I realised it was exactly what I use to do,

so now all I feel is challenged.

Again so close to giving you an answer,

but you didn't push hard enough, and I'm still confused about other things unrelated.

 

So am I lying to myself now?

Avoiding it?

Or just hiding?

 

Understanding,

Helen

Here I am blogging on word…Monday, 28th September 2009, 12:08pm.

I would’ve been on the internet if my peak time wasn’t so near to the capping limit, or something along those lines. So this post won’t be up until 12am.

 

Last few days have been hectic, lol, managed to pump out enough cards for the picnic, do a little bit of food organising and had some trouble with the bus tickets, but we managed to get everything sorted out =], so it was all good. HAHA until the day, lol we missed the first bus, which resulted in a 30 minute or so wait for the next one and then we filled up the bus, we had 36 people =]. But other than those few minor troubles it was all good, I think a majority of people enjoyed the day, or at least they pretended too XD, but you really can’t ask for anymore when you’re organising stuff. I just really wished I had more of a chance to talk to people and catch up, but that only means we’ll have to do something again, soon…ish and maybe on not such a grand scale.

 

I’m still in pain from the day, my right arm hurts and my leg too, my voice was a little horse that night and I almost lost it, but I found it again so it’s all good. HAHA I wonder if I’ll just be remembered as the little asian girl screaming at everyone.

 

Most people seemed to click really well, so I’m really happy with that, that means next time things won’t get so awkward or all over the place. Was I really looking that stressed that day?

 

On a different note, watched An Education with Chi, Melda and her sister yesterday. It was really good, I can see how it won the cinematography award and people’s choice award at the Sundance Film Festival. Have some horrid looking photos of me and good ones of Melda, so I shall upload them soon.

 

Meeting Preet now, actually I need to be out the door.

 

Happy and sore,

Helen

YES! Approximately half way done with the surprises.

I'm liking most of them so far lol some are just ...ehhh... hehe.

I should give myself a pat on the back, almost doubled what I originally had.

OMG I just realised what else I was suppose to do =.=".

Damnit I hope that'll be easier than this... it'll mean that I'll have to finish all of this by tomorrow night...

then start on the next surprise.. and I need string too... hmmm.

 

Lol freaked out today about my pasta recipe.

I couldn't find it in my unfilled cookbook.

Luckily I used it once for Food Tech, so I had it on disc.

Lol now speed up the cooking time.

 

 

 

Wondering,

Helen ♥

And cue... break ^^.

Yes ladies and gentleman, I have now reached the awaited break and time of great activites.

I'm going to be a busy little bee this week trying to get everything done on time... which reminds me I have to contact Preet.

GAHHH I really hope I can finish my part on time.

 

Had an AWESOME DAY today... and saw a whole bunch of dearly missed people.

- ReThreads with Rachel and Ed,

- Holly's saxaphone performance and saw Raymond,

- Dinner, Swan Lake and dessert with Amy and Melda

- and last but not least Net Cafe with Ben =].

So it was an awesomely full and tiring day lol, plus I just put my clothes away.. so yay for me XD.

 

Friday was filled with jobs, which I completed at a pathetic pace, and Thursday was pretty awesome too =], the Pizza Hut crew eating out again.

 

I have noticed something... everytime I try to be good and attempt to pull myself out of that world, it only lasts for a while.

It's like trouble (good trouble ;)P) comes to find me, just to prove to me it's part of me.

HAHA maybe it is, seeing as I can't escape it.

It's the domino effect. I've had at least four visits from the past and then several new little additions, plus a whole lot of confusion.

So what to do?... what to do?

It would be oh so very easy to fall back into old habits with a new twist, but would it be more of a challenge to resist the temptation?

Hmmmm... we do only live once... and it's not very often this happens, AND I have been good for a long while now.

But there's usually less, and I don't know if would be able to keep up... is that where-in lays the challenge?

lol I really need someone I can confide in lol... an old friend or new?

 

Confusingly,

Helen ♥

YES... and I have finished all my assignments for this half of the semester and I only have one tutorial/lab test tomorrow.

Ok not really that much of a happy yes since I know I failed programming.. but that just means I'll have to work extra hard the second half of this semester.

Wow almost a complete year of Uni.. hahah who would've thought that I'd have this much drama in a year....

and now that I think back on it, I've always had some kind of drama or other every year... but it's usually spaced out...

This 3 quarters of  the year has been quite a rollercoaster.. hahah I'm kinda glad I went to an all girls school.

 

I really can't wait for the Thank You Picnic, we're really going to have to do some HARDCORE organisnig and planning,

the numbers for it right is so much more than we expected and it's really going to challenge us, but we've done it before and we'll definitely be able to do it agian.

Plus we do get a week so I'm going to put as much effort into as I can without drawing away from my social life or education. LOL usually the social life wins, but I really want this to be special so, fingers crossed. =]

 

Ooo had my first experience of staying overnight in the First Years Lounge, Building 10, UTS.

I really liked it, haha it was different and Uni's kinda relaxing when there's no one around.

I'd really like to do it again.

 

 

Last day of uni in a few hours... I wonder what the day will hold.

Hehehe we're suppose to do Brandon's make up... I forgot to text Rowena about it... so I'll bring some along.. and hopefully I can wake up early enough to text her to bring something too... or maybe facebook Miranda. We'll see heheheheh... photo time =].

 

Helen ♥

So here I am... sitting in front of my computer again... just like every other night...

I'm suppose to be editing our group assignment, but it's too early for me to properly concentrate and it's hard to edit other people's work sometimes cause you don't know what their train of thought was...

In order for me to think probably later, I am occupying myself with totally non-related things, things like blogging.

 

I'm kinda getting stressed now, and how often do I say that?, but it might just be anxiety?

I want one thing over and done with as soon as possible so I can get the next thing over and done with etc,

but it seems like everything's dragging on and coming too fast at the same time.

I've got assignments, driving, the picnic and general studying all on my plate right now, thankfully family outings will be at a stand still for now,

Another thing I realised today, I really enjoy and miss the idea of things, but not the actual thing,

for example, I miss the feelings but I also don't want it, I think an imaginary world would be quite suitable for me right now.

And I must say no more often... plus getting annoyed with expectations...

 

back to editing,

Helen ♥

 

edit: actually... no I'm just going to get my stuff ready for tomorrow and do it tomorrow, cause I know at this rate I might finish it but that'll mean I'll end up sleeping at 6am or something, so goodnight all =].

The Illusionist (2007) - Neil Burger

 

An amazing film. Ahh I was completely surprised by the ending,

maybe because I watched it without any expectations.

Last movie that was awesome that I watched was District 9,

but this was a different kind of awesome and I'm so glad I picked it up.

 

The excution of the story was amazing and I throughly enjoyed it.

This is the first movie where I'm actually watching the commentary whilst the movie is playing.

So it proves it really got to me.

 

A must watch movie that makes you question the reality of life and the appreciation in the simplist of illusions.

I know sometimes I always tried to determine the trick behind it all,

and this time I didn't, I went along with the story and it was a wonderful experience.

 

Definitely watching the movie again to pick up the clues, not in attempt to to ruin the magic of it mind you,

but to see how much I listened and paid attention to the commentary.

 

to be continued...

 

SOOO ALL IN ALL A GOOD MOVIE.... I can't remember my train of thought at the time...so it'd just sound disjointed if I attempted to finish this hahah.. and I'm lazy